Excruciating..,

Negate that, what the mind discerns,
Salvage, the thirst to trust;
Act deaf to that, which the heart prompts,
Block out, the image you are;
Accept that, what the fate dishes,
Sanctify, the precious soul;
Renounce that, which the memory agonizes,
Swallow, the embarrassment;
I will, all these do,
and, forgive you too - only
if I can forgive my self!
For, I can forgive..
if I can just.... forget.