Heart over mind~

Listen carefully,
both - you and I -
here 'm screaming this silently.
I say you are just another.
Immaterial.
Then I retrofit.
Some introspection!
If you are inconsequent,
why do I keep remembering you?
If you are a Nobody
why do I ache for your approval?
You matter because I mind you?
Tell me, if I don’t mind you,
would you stop to matter?

And everytime I cry..,

...listening to this great thing. I close my eyes. I lose and find myself again. A feeling as if I have lived those few minutes. In a happy way usually accompanied with a heavy contented sigh. Pure ecstasy!

Illaiyaraaja's How to name it!

Loud quietness

I can talk all I want
unabashed, un-maidenly words.
Even smile, blush and giggle.
Condemnatory hushes and
eyebrow raised - naught.
For the words and smiles
are with you!And only you;
Only me.
That’s why I prefer
to like your silence best!

Nothing matters where everything is important...

...or is it the other way around. Anyways about today - I did not feel like doing anything. I was not up to sitting idle. I remembered wanting to upload songs in IPod. I realized I had a code deadline. I grumbled to make the decision on what to cook. I regretted having to decide what stocks to buy next. I cried hard when I was very happy. I remained restless when I became sad. I wanted to be in company. I plugged on my head-phones to drown out the conversations. I feared I’m reaching OCD. I planed to sign up for yoga. I wished my unused gym membership would get a full refund. I tried to paint my words sharp and bright. I pictured black and white. I felt very hungry. I despised the sight of food. I fell in and out of love, becoming aware of one, when the other happened. I had a nightmare involving ocean waves. I confessed I loved fall of waters deeply. I waited, searched, pled for some idea to strike, so that I had something to write about. My mind was filled with a whole bunch of scrap life. I wanted to love everyone the same way I perceived them to love me. I wanted to lie down and sleep. I felt like going to a party. I fought to remain silent. I think I said something, in my head or aloud, I couldn’t be sure.

I know what I want. I believe I know what I want. I would like to hold on to that thought, especially on days like these, when there is a constant struggle between wanting to do something and searching for that will to do the same thing. Is this a narcissistic deficiency to consciously give in to the pull of two dominant egos? I’m feeling nothing is worth-while in life, running the risk of sounding a tad like a nihilist. Maybe, I’m so! But that does not help me much. I want to erase everything and begin anew. Can I? More importantly, will I?

An unpublished poem

During Writer's(!) block does this count as a post?

If I had an empty head
As some folks say I do
I'd clean out all the cobwebs
And rent it out to you
I’ll have you fill it up
With all things you say and do
And would pay twice the price
To rent it back from you.

(Said Jhonny Hart)

Found it as a cartoon pasted on my office refridge. You know, this one's kinda funny, innocent and makes sense too(yeah, why not?). I don't know why, I have taken a fancy to it. Reading it in a sing-song way adds more fun.

BTW, HART means 'having extreme affection towards someone, causing one to perform the act of a hug' or so it seems.

And here is a song I enjoyed today. Thanks for stopping by.

I have nothing to say. So borrowing someone else's words

The following is the philosophy of Charles Schultz, the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read straight through, and you'll get the point.


1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.

2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.

3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America Contest.

4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.

5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor and actress.

6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.


Did you know?

The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. They are not second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.


Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:

1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.

2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.

3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.

4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.

5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.

Easier?


The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are NOT the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones who care.